Dysphoria and Euphoria

"A bad drawing of an anthropomorphic sheep/goat in a blue-and-yellow dress, getting impaled by a bronze sword in such a way that the bottom of it's handle kinda looks like a penis. Blood is leaking everywhere and the sheep/goat is holding a sagging blue rose."

Being trans has it's ups-and-downs...

Links

Gender Dysphoria Bible
Euphoria
!Depersonalization in Gender Dysphoria
To Grieving Parents
!I am a trans woman, I am in the closet, and I am not coming out
Youtube: The Incel to Trans Pipeline and Inside Mari

Art

I have the nose of a witch, the teeth of a wolf, the ears of an elf, and the detatched, immaterial sort of body insecurity that can only come from being a princess trapped in a tower. Metaphorically, in my case.

Ludens

A Circle of Charity by Kate Bagenzo (Itch)

Audio

Albums

All Of Us Flames by Ezra Furman (Bandcamp)
solipsisters by katie dey (Bandcamp)
The Orgin of My Depression by Uboa (Bandcamp)

Songs

!Is It Cold In The Water? by SOPHIE (Youtube)
Home by Cavetown (Bandcamp)
Candy Says by The Velvet Underground (Youtube)

Memories

2022-11-07: "My sister cut her hair very short recently, and now many people have been mistaking me for her because I am the only other person in the house with long hair. As a closeted trans girl, I am very much enjoying this :P" (Source)

2021-03-16: "Welp, my parents forced me to cut my hair even though I wanted to grow it out longer :(" (Source)

I don't act or look like how I am. So what is me? I'm forced inside this meat mannequin, this soffocating puppet I'm forced to move to survive. I hate the way I'm perceived and implied upon. Every social interaction leads definitive conclusions on me as an idea. The millions of me in everyone else's mind. The only true "me" is stuck inside 6 inches of skull. And nobody can see it.